When we are disappointed or hurt by others, we form what has been called a "grievance story." The story is about how we were wounded by this person who has become the villain of the narrative. We tell our story over and over to family members and others to the point that they get tired of hearing about it. Every time we tell our grievance story we are letting that person wound us in the present because all the emotions are being experienced again. After hearing someone's grievance story, I thought the wound happened recently. I was shocked to discover the wound occurred more than 10 years ago.
It's helpful to stop and ask ourselves, "What do we want to happen by the telling of our hurt stories?" Perhaps the intention is for others to think poorly of that person or have nothing to do with her or him. In truth, other people may be thinking poorly of us by our being obsessed with our grievance story.
Every time we tell our grievance story
we are letting that person wound us in the present because all the emotions are being experienced again.
Being stuck like this reminds us of the children's game, "Simon Says." Some of us who are older may remember this game. Three or more children played the game. One person was Simon who would yell out a command such as "Simon says jump." The players must jump and those who did not were out of the game. If Simon gave a command such as "jump" without using the words "Simon says," those who jumped were out of the game. (A recent psychological study found that the game can be a healthy way to help children to improve self-control and restraint of impulsive behavior.) Telling our grievance story over and over again is like Simon saying, "Simon says FREEZE." Everyone freezes at the hurt event and stays there until we hear, "Simon says unfreeze." The problem with some of us is that we do not move on because we don't hear that last command.
So how do we get unfrozen and move on? The first step is to distinguish between the enforceable rules from the unenforceable rules. A step recommended in the book Forgive For Good is to think of our mind like a television set. If we don't like what we are watching, change the channel. The feelings come from what we are watching/believing, so change the channel to something like the "gratitude," "thankfulness," or "blessing" channel. We will continue to explore this issue next month.